I had the privilege to share a post on Lifeway Pastors today. Here is an excerpt:

Before I became a pastor, I heard people in ministry joke about how they wanted to quit almost every Monday. I laughed, but didn’t really understand. I then became a pastor and the light bulb came on. Or should I say the reality set in. We have seen in recent days ministers who have quit or are no longer serving in ministry because of burnout, emotional pain, moral failures, and alcoholism to just name a few. The list could go on. The reality hurts even more.

What do you do when those moments come and you’re ready to throw in the towel? It may sound like the following statements. I know because I’ve been there.

– “I’m not cut out for this.”

– “I’m exhausted and don’t have anything left to give.”

– “No one really understands what I’m going through.”

Check out the FIVE Reasons To Keep Going When You Want To Quit.

 

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Ava and Jeremiah started school on Monday. Ava is in 2nd Grade and Jeremiah is in 5th Grade.

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Naomi and Elijah started school yesterday. Elijah is in 7th Grade and his first year at Carmel Valley Middle School. Naomi is in 8th grade this year.

I swear every time I blink these kids are getting older. I can’t believe we have two middle schoolers and our youngest is now in second grade!

We are grateful for these four blessings God has given us. We believe greatness is over their lives and God is going to use each of them in a huge way this year!

Last night, Elijah said he thinks he has completely memorized the prayer we pray over him each night. Susan told him that’s good and we pray he never forgets it!

It was a reminder that as parents our prayers are like prophecies being spoken over our children. It’s like I told a couple at church on Sunday during a baby dedication – we can’t be perfect parents but we can be praying parents.

The last few weeks we certainly have come to know that like never before. We have prayed so much and asked for God’s grace in such a life changing time for our family as Elijah was diagnosed with Type 1 Diabetes. We are believing for God’s healing over his life and a cure for all Type 1 Diabetes!

In the mean time, we pray. We trust. We believe. We know God didn’t cause this, but He will use this!

Elijah has gone through so many emotions. Anger, sadness, tears, frustration, etc. You name it he has probably experienced it as we have too.

It’s reminded me just how little control we have in this life. Control is one of the greatest illusions in human history. We don’t have near as much control over what we think we do. What we do have complete control over is how we choose to respond in any given situation. Make no mistake, what is inside will eventually come out for better or worse.

Elijah had a great first day of school and adjusted well to his new routine. He has to go to the nurse’s office before lunch each day to check his blood sugar and administer his shot. He did both by himself on the first day of school.

He has come a long way in just a few short weeks since being diagnosed. He regularly checks his own blood sugar and can do his own shots when needed. Susan and I handle breakfast and dinner time routines. We try our best  to make this adjustment he has had to make as easy as possible for him.

He has had some blood sugar lows the past couple of days. He has gone below 60 a few times which enters the “danger zone.” The other day he had a “low” and didn’t even realize it. Susan looked at him and he was white as a ghost. We pray he quickly gets to know his body in a way that he can spot when he is having a low or gets really high.

We submitted for a glucose monitor reader that he wears 24/7 called Dexcom. We pray it gets approved. It will really help for when he is playing sports or away from us for an extended period of time. It would help in this period where he is still trying to figure out his body and the doctors are leveling out his insulin intake.

Here are two verses we put on our refrigerator and we are clinging to this school year over each of our children.

“Be strong and courageous! Do not be afraid or discouraged. For the Lord your God is with you wherever you go.” (Joshua 1:9)

“Take delight in the Lord,and he will give you your heart’s desires. Commit everything you do to the Lord. Trust him, and he will help you.” (Psalm 37:4-5)

Thank you for your prayers.

We are grateful!

Elijah Leaving The Hospital

August 12, 2016

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Leaving The Hospital on Wednesday. We thank the Rady Children’s staff who were so great to us.

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Like Father. Like Son. In This together!

We are so grateful we were able to go home on Wednesday evening. We are home and adjusting to a new normal. I am so proud of Elijah. He literally has not complained one time about taking four shots a day and getting his finger pricked at least 4 and sometimes more each day.

He even played basketball on Thursday night for the tryouts on a competitive basketball team he plays for. He did a great job and is making progress. The doctors gave him permission and we want him to get back to being as normal as possible. The last thing we ever want is for him to feel he can’t do certain things.

His blood sugar dropped very low around midnight last night and we were up late checking his blood sugar levels multiple times and getting him to take certain things to raise his levels. He vomited and became very pale. Of course, we panicked, called the doctor, and did everything else we knew to do. Thankfully, it all evened out. We know it’s going to take time finding a healthy balance and what he needs to keep everything at a healthy level.

Thank you again for everyone who has prayed and encouraged us. We are grateful for each of you.

We know God is going to use this to build something great in and through Elijah. God is teaching us a lot through it all.

We see His hand in so much that we’ve had to walk through already and we are so grateful for His love and grace each day!

Living In His Grace,

Kevin & Susan

Update On Elijah

August 10, 2016


A picture from last night. Elijah wasn’t in a mood to smile for the camera but he does have a brother and two sisters who love him so much! 


We finally got him to take a picture! 
Thank you to everyone who has prayed, sent messages, left comments on social media, called us, sent cards, etc. 

We truly are grateful for all of your love and support. 

It feels like that first doctor’s appointment on Monday at 8:45am was a month ago. We have been through a lot, absorbed a ton of information, and coming to grips with this major life change. All while sitting in a hospital room trying to keep our 12 year old son encouraged. 

We are trying our best to simply take this one day at a time. We know we will be ok in time, but for now we are living in God’s grace for today. We know it could be worse but it’s still hard. 

They did confirm Elijah has Type 1 Diabetes. While there are a lot of theories, no one is quite sure what triggers it. 

They have gotten Elijah’s body back in balance as of this morning (Wednesday). 

He is already on four shots a day. One at breakfast and lunch. Then two at dinner. 

He also gets his blood checked at least four times a day to see how much insulin he needs. 

Elijah has been a CHAMP! We are so proud of him. I write this with tears in my eyes as I think about the change he is having to make and doing it all without complaining. He has had the best attitude you could expect anyone to have given the situation.  

Our hearts hurt for him to think this is something he will have to manage his entire life. All the details – diet changes, when to check blood sugar levels, how to give the shots, how to manage sports, etc – are overwhelming to us. 

We are planning to come home today if he continues to respond well and we have a grip on how to monitor everything. 

We will have plenty of follow up appointments, and phone call check ins with the doctor/nurses. 

There is still a lot of unknowns but what we do know – God has amazing plans for Elijah, his greatest days are ahead, he will not be defined by this because he is already defined by Jesus, by the stripes of Jesus he will be healed, he is broken from the curse of the Law, God’s favor is all over his life, he will be used greatly for God’s kingdom, and the best is yet to come for Elijah! 

Keep praying. We love you!

Kevin & Susan 

Please Pray For Elijah

August 8, 2016


Hello Everyone,

Elijah has been sick the last few weeks and we took him to the doctor today. 
They are saying he has Type 1 Diabetes and rushing us over to Rady Children’s today to run more tests and get his body back into balance so that it’s not life threatening. 
They said he would be there at least over night and possibly two nights. 

Please pray! 

Our hearts are hurting for him. He cried on the way home from the doctors office and he is really confused about everything as we are in many ways too. 

Please pray healing over his life and peace over our family right now. 

This picture of our other three kids praying over him before we left for the hospital is a powerful reminder that our family including our kids believe in the power of prayer. 

Thank you for your love & support! 

Kevin & Susan